This will be the first entry in this journal in about a year and a half.

     I've been up all night working on lit project that I had the wrong due date for, realizing that it was due today as opposed to Friday like I had thought. Due to my attention span and the issues I have focusing on work when I sit down at a computer, I took one 20 mg tab of Adderall XR (of which I have a prescription for as needed) to help me sit down and get it done.

     The one non-avoidable side effect that this helping drug has is that I am unable to sleep with it in my system; partially due to the fact it induces a mild temporary insomnia issue, and also I would be so focused on something I would lay in bed and hone in on that thought. If I could do something about it physically, I would eventually and inevitably gt up to do something about it. If I couldn't I would lay there and obsess over that idea.

To those who actually might read this: Adderall is an amphetamine, therefore it has a high addiction and abuse factor. DO NOT under any circumstances consume more than your prescribed amount for any amount of time (this includes one "dose"). I speak from experience because I accidentally stepped over the line a few times working on a giant project. While safe in controlled doses, Adderall (particularly the XR variant due to its increased time in your system) can kills brain cells, liver cancer in extreme cases, dehydration and can royally screw over your stomach just on a physical side of things. On a mental side, it can cause depression, insomnia, and temporary psychosis or hallucinations. Again this drug is an AMPHETAMINE, which is about 2/3 of the molecular structure of meth.

Even thought I've been up I feel fairly good about my self and life at the moment. I'm a bit behind on work and I have to put up with an obnoxious lazy ass on a daily basis who doesn't show the same respect for things that I do. While that's a bit shallow in reasoning, it is never the less annoying to have to put up with. The former needs to be handled tomorrow, the latter I can't do much about cause the guy is about as thick-headed and stubborn as I am.

I present to you the first bit of a story I hope to collab with my friends on to complete:

    From times of old and forgotten lore that reach back eons to lands and stories unknown, there are tales of a powerful sorceress who had no name but the one those who kept the tales gave her. The unique thing about this myth however, is that all of the legends were true. There indeed was a mighty sorceress that called this world home, but did not live, she existed as force of nature able to bend the very fabric of reality to her will. She was a primordial being, existing as a representation of nature's raw power.
     For a time before complex non-plant life on this earth, she was bored. She found some solace in aiding and directing evolution as it progressed over hundreds of thousands of millenia, but it was tedious and repetitive entertainment. It wasn't until the rise of sapient creatures that she found real joy in her existence.
     At first when she discovered man kind had risen, she did nothing but passively watch and gently guide them as she had done to all life for eons. As they started to form a culture and civilization, she began to become more active in the lives of these humans. She gave them stories herself; luring the creatures away one at time and showing them a small part of her power in order to make herself known, but always mysterious. She planted herself in the history and records of these creatures she help shape.
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